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lady_saraiSo, Grey's Anatomy breaks me into tiny pieces and puts me back together.
Overwhelmingly (and expectedly so), my reaction right now is all about George and Cristina.
I can't not address this.
Cristina is now back on my List Of Characters I Adore. She was pissing me off with the Burke thing, but. GUH. See, I thought she'd gone running to Burke and that would have been okay, but this was so much BETTER.
Cristina: There's a club. The Dead Dads club. You can't be in it until you're in it. You can try and understand, you can sympathize, but until you feel that loss... My dad died when I was nine. George. I'm really sorry you had to join the club.
I don't know when I've heard it put so correctly before. She's so right. There's no way to explain what it's like to lose your father and no way you can understand until it happens. You can empathize, and you can *try* but it's just not the same. And it's not that you don't appreciate the sympathy/empathy from other people, it's just that they can't get it. And it's not something you EVER want anyone else to go through.
George: I don't know how to exist in a world where my dad doesn't.
Cristina: Yeah, that never really changes.
GUH. The thing is? It doesn't, but it does. Because you just do it--you just exist. And after enough time, it's sort of like... that's just the way it is.
It's like what my mother has always said--she gets annoyed by people who say things like "I don't know how you do it, I could never handle it"... well, it's not like there's a CHOICE involved. When people tell her how strong she is, she gets frustrated but I will agree with THEM there--my mother is an amazing woman. We were LITTLE when my dad died and she took everything on herself. But there was no choice involved. We all did what we had to do. We just live every day because that's how it is.
And they way I feel, as a daughter who lost her father, is completely different than the way my mother feels, as a wife who lost her husband. I watched this episode with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
aradiachiba and zoe_chan at Ariel's apartment, and the scene where George's dad finally died? I knew Mom was watching that scene with a completely different set of baggage and a totally different emotional basis than I was.
This episode just hit a lot of my really raw spots. The comment Meredith made is a perfect example of what Cristina meant when she said that unless it's happened to you, you don't get it.
She said something to the effect of "if he (her father) died, it wouldn't change my life" (or something). The thing is? It WOULD. Not as directly and intimately as George's father dying, but it can't NOT. Even if she didn't find out until years later, there would be some shift in her. She would never be able to ask him about what happened with her mother, she would never know about the snoring. Her life might not change, not drastically, but she would be affected.
I confess that I am not loving this storyline because it's just a *little* too close to home, and I'm not looking forward to the episodes dealing with George's grieving.
On another note, while the scene with George and Cristina absolutely shattered me, the scenes following with the Alex/Addison kiss and the Meredith/Derek snuggling really made me feel a little less splintered. I liked that it ended with the snuggling.
I think Cristina was the only one of them all who could really reach George right then, and I'm so glad she did. She said the right things and just... guh. It's not all right and it's not going to be all right for a long time, but my Oh, GEORGE quotient just went through the roof. And now I'm adding an Oh, CRISTINA to that.
::smooshes them::
I love her for what she said.
I think I still love this show. Ask me again when this episode is not so raw.
...This icon isn't heartwrenching enough for this. I could use my Helga one, but... this has GEORGE. I think I need one with him and Cristina now. I need more icons.
Overwhelmingly (and expectedly so), my reaction right now is all about George and Cristina.
I can't not address this.
Cristina is now back on my List Of Characters I Adore. She was pissing me off with the Burke thing, but. GUH. See, I thought she'd gone running to Burke and that would have been okay, but this was so much BETTER.
Cristina: There's a club. The Dead Dads club. You can't be in it until you're in it. You can try and understand, you can sympathize, but until you feel that loss... My dad died when I was nine. George. I'm really sorry you had to join the club.
I don't know when I've heard it put so correctly before. She's so right. There's no way to explain what it's like to lose your father and no way you can understand until it happens. You can empathize, and you can *try* but it's just not the same. And it's not that you don't appreciate the sympathy/empathy from other people, it's just that they can't get it. And it's not something you EVER want anyone else to go through.
George: I don't know how to exist in a world where my dad doesn't.
Cristina: Yeah, that never really changes.
GUH. The thing is? It doesn't, but it does. Because you just do it--you just exist. And after enough time, it's sort of like... that's just the way it is.
It's like what my mother has always said--she gets annoyed by people who say things like "I don't know how you do it, I could never handle it"... well, it's not like there's a CHOICE involved. When people tell her how strong she is, she gets frustrated but I will agree with THEM there--my mother is an amazing woman. We were LITTLE when my dad died and she took everything on herself. But there was no choice involved. We all did what we had to do. We just live every day because that's how it is.
And they way I feel, as a daughter who lost her father, is completely different than the way my mother feels, as a wife who lost her husband. I watched this episode with
aradiachiba and zoe_chan at Ariel's apartment, and the scene where George's dad finally died? I knew Mom was watching that scene with a completely different set of baggage and a totally different emotional basis than I was.This episode just hit a lot of my really raw spots. The comment Meredith made is a perfect example of what Cristina meant when she said that unless it's happened to you, you don't get it.
She said something to the effect of "if he (her father) died, it wouldn't change my life" (or something). The thing is? It WOULD. Not as directly and intimately as George's father dying, but it can't NOT. Even if she didn't find out until years later, there would be some shift in her. She would never be able to ask him about what happened with her mother, she would never know about the snoring. Her life might not change, not drastically, but she would be affected.
I confess that I am not loving this storyline because it's just a *little* too close to home, and I'm not looking forward to the episodes dealing with George's grieving.
On another note, while the scene with George and Cristina absolutely shattered me, the scenes following with the Alex/Addison kiss and the Meredith/Derek snuggling really made me feel a little less splintered. I liked that it ended with the snuggling.
I think Cristina was the only one of them all who could really reach George right then, and I'm so glad she did. She said the right things and just... guh. It's not all right and it's not going to be all right for a long time, but my Oh, GEORGE quotient just went through the roof. And now I'm adding an Oh, CRISTINA to that.
::smooshes them::
I love her for what she said.
I think I still love this show. Ask me again when this episode is not so raw.
...This icon isn't heartwrenching enough for this. I could use my Helga one, but... this has GEORGE. I think I need one with him and Cristina now. I need more icons.
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Date: 2007-01-20 02:42 am (UTC)And I love what Izzy said about cleaning the bathroom floor for George. That actually made me tear up.
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Date: 2007-01-22 06:35 am (UTC)Yes, what Izzie said really got to me, too. I ♥ all those silly people.