lady_sarai

Is it still Monday?

Damn, even by the clock it is. =P

Ah well.

Am pissed at a "friend" who singled *me* out about not going bowling for Jenna's birthday. Even though Steph and Tina also declined. She attacked me on AIM when I was in class, so thank you, Katharine, for leaving me *such* a nice message to come back to.

Something like "I don't understand how you girls can spend money on alcohol but can't spend money to celebrate a friend's birthday. If you don't want to hang out, I'd rather you tell us than make up excuses about money."

Issue 1: OH MY GOD, GROW THE HELL UP!

Issue 2: Jenna wanted to go bowling in *Waterville* which is over an hour away. Steph and Tina have student teaching the next morning. The bowling would cost $10.50. I don't *have* $10.50. My grandmother gave me money this weekend and I used it on gas, which I'm sure wasn't her intention. But that's the state of things. Katharine and Jenna go to Walmart all the damn time and buy matching bras and dart guns and sleds for everyone. They don't get it.

So that was more than one issue, but...

Issue 3: When we drank on Wednesday, we each spent *exactly* $3 for a six pack, which we split. I mean... $3. Come on. We're not entitled to a little something for ourselves? We have been stressed and were--for once--in a good mood, all 3 of us. So we got Smirnoff and finished Tina's bottle of wine.

Wow, big time drinkers here. ::rolls eyes::

Besides, I didn't even take the turnpike home this weekend because that $3 was my toll money for 3 trips.

So like she has room to judge, because she doesn't have a god-damn clue.

But it pisses me off that she chose today to make this an issue, and decided to IM me about it. What the hell?

So I replied and told her we spent $3 and it had nothing to do with not wanting to celebrate Jenna's birthday and then I told her I was highly offended.

And her highly mature reaction?

She ignores me all night. To the point where we saw each other at dance class and she talked to everyone else but not even a "hi" to me.

My very mature reaction to this was to ignore her right back, but passively. Oo, boy, bigger person here. >.< But I couldn't go talk to her because I'm literally too upset about it.

I shouldn't let this upset me.

Except it TOTALLY does. I NEVER deal well with attacks like that, MOST ESPECIALLY when in writing. Goddamn it, no one write me letters or IMs or anything about why you're irked with me because it gets my ire up more than anything else. Come talk to my face, and I'll be upset but not angry.

Oi.

Like Steph said, I probably will never see her again after graduation anyway. I'm not that upset about that.

And I have this totally irrational grudge against birthdays. Because Katharine and Jenna make HUGE deals about EVERYONE's birthdays... they have surprise parties, complete with cake and hats and noise-makers. I wouldn't expect this from say, Theanna or Ariel or Steph or Tina, because we don't do those things. But Katharine and Jenna do, and expect everyone to come and participate.

So, in 2 years, I have taken part in parties for Anne, Leah, Katie, JOYCE (who isn't even a student here!), Katharine, and Jenna. Katie even *CAME UP* to UMF on her birthday this year for her party. This year they even gave Tina one. Notice the two people not included in that list.

Oh, right. Steph and me. Steph's birthday is even in October when we're here. So she has a legitimate reason to resent these damn parties.

Mine is in August. And when *once* I jokingly mentioned not getting a party, Katharine got very bitchy and said "I called you on your birthday, don't complain" and Jenna reminded me that I got an e-card from her.

Oh, right.

Those are the SAME.

>.< ::fumes::

It's not that I want a huge party. I'd just like them to *consider* that *maybe* it bothers me a little when they make big deals about everyone except me.

Is that irrational? Probably. Mine is a summer birthday...

Except that the 2nd day of school we had a big party for Anne because her birthday was in AUGUST and Jenna said to me, "if we don't give her a party she'll be hurt."

....To *ME* she says this.

Thanks, girls. Feeling loved.

Argh.

So, needless to say, not looking forward to Jenna's birthday bash after dinner tomorrow. And Katie's coming up, which should be fun since she and Tina don't get along well.

Feeling decidedly irked and petty and I don't enjoy that feeling.

Also, my right shoulder-blade *really* hurts. Ow. Where is a heating pad when I need it?

On the up-note, I won a TON over at the Last Unicorn icon community I belong to. They have 2 challenges every week, and I won 1st, 2nd and Mod's Choice for the image challenge and 2nd, 3rd and Mod's Choice for the Quote challenge!!

I feel awed by that.

I should make more icons! This would cheer me up.

I took Steph's "simply sleep" tylenol tonight. Hoping this knocks me out and I sleep well tonight.