Reason # 573,498 why my mother is my hero.

[lady_sarai]

Wow. So, Mom's reading Michael Connelly novels because my brother is obsessed with them and kept shoving them at her. He loves them because they're action-packed and he's a criminal justice major. She's reading them because the first one got her hooked.

But she just stopped to tell me that she wants to put the book in the freezer (anyone who recognizes that joke, I will... squee at and write a drabble for or something), and then she said she used to read these mystery/crime novels all the time, but then she stopped and I asked why. She just Looked at me and then said she used to have a hard time sleeping.

Now, I thought it was a case of active imagination, but then she explained that when we were little, she used to sleep with a baseball bat under her bed and a BUTCHER KNIFE under her mattress in easy reach.

Those of you who know my mother will understand why that makes me go O_O, because she's possibly the least violent person I know.

But I was seven and my brother was three when my dad died and she was a single mother. It shouldn't surprise me that she worried, but she said tonight that she doesn't think she had a good night's sleep before I was in high school.

This? Is why my mother is my hero. It's another reason to continue to want to grow up to BE her. I love my mother.

Also, I realized that it's been two weeks today since I found out about Katharine's death. I'm doing better, but a lot of the time it just feels like she's up at school and I'll see her sign online anytime now. I was cleaning out my email and found an email from her and I can't remember if I answered her; I hope I did. I hope her family is all right. I kind of wish I knew what happened--what actually happened when the snowmobile rolled over--but then I think I'm just going to go with what Steph and I talked about, and decide to believe that it was quick and as painless as possible. Because that's what I hope for her. I keep thinking about what the pastor said at her funeral and it makes me smile--she said that for Katharine, that ride through those snowy woods never ended. It's a nice image and it makes me picture her happy.

Anyway. Yeah. I realized a while ago that my default position on the parentage of characters is to assume a dead or absent father. This makes writing for certain characters/fandoms easier than others. But when I need to write a story where there are two parents? HA!

The old "write what you know" rule definitely applies there. Heh!

I was all random and silly earlier and now I'm feeling kind of... meh. I'm sure I could switch to random very easily again, but maybe I can harness this into something creative and write something. Hmm. The question is *what.*

And zoe_chan? I am on a Meat Loaf kick now, thanks to you. I JUST got over my Bon Jovi kick! Ack!

Comments

[zoe-chan.livejournal.com]

Your mother is so one of the coolest people ever. And she is totally a hero.

And me? Get you onto a Meat Loaf kick? ::smirks::

[lady-sarai.livejournal.com]

I ♥ my mother. And yours, too, as a matter of fact. It's no wonder we are made of such win with mothers like ours. ;)

And you? Are the worst vile enabler of the lot.

Did you know that I cannot hear "You took the words right out of my mouth" without thinking of the summer you got married? I mean, first of all, the song makes me think of you ANYWAY--thank you, Remus and Sirius--but the drive from home to summer camp was precisely the duration of that song and I listened to it in the morning AND on the way home for I THINK the whole summer.

Just so you know.

And I see your Disney heroine and raise you Jane.