lady_sarai

Wow. So, Mom's reading Michael Connelly novels because my brother is obsessed with them and kept shoving them at her. He loves them because they're action-packed and he's a criminal justice major. She's reading them because the first one got her hooked.

But she just stopped to tell me that she wants to put the book in the freezer (anyone who recognizes that joke, I will... squee at and write a drabble for or something), and then she said she used to read these mystery/crime novels all the time, but then she stopped and I asked why. She just Looked at me and then said she used to have a hard time sleeping.

Now, I thought it was a case of active imagination, but then she explained that when we were little, she used to sleep with a baseball bat under her bed and a BUTCHER KNIFE under her mattress in easy reach.

Those of you who know my mother will understand why that makes me go O_O, because she's possibly the least violent person I know.

But I was seven and my brother was three when my dad died and she was a single mother. It shouldn't surprise me that she worried, but she said tonight that she doesn't think she had a good night's sleep before I was in high school.

This? Is why my mother is my hero. It's another reason to continue to want to grow up to BE her. I love my mother.

Also, I realized that it's been two weeks today since I found out about Katharine's death. ( Because I'm having a bit of a moment, I'm recording some thoughts just to release them. )

Anyway. Yeah. I realized a while ago that my default position on the parentage of characters is to assume a dead or absent father. This makes writing for certain characters/fandoms easier than others. But when I need to write a story where there are two parents? HA!

The old "write what you know" rule definitely applies there. Heh!

I was all random and silly earlier and now I'm feeling kind of... meh. I'm sure I could switch to random very easily again, but maybe I can harness this into something creative and write something. Hmm. The question is *what.*

And zoe_chan? I am on a Meat Loaf kick now, thanks to you. I JUST got over my Bon Jovi kick! Ack!